2012-10-03

Update: Wednesday 3 Oct

I totally intended to write a post about Disneyland but I didn't feel like it earlier this week, and at the moment I am sitting in the atrium at my school (underneath a staircase even) and I am on my netbook, so all the necessary pictures would just be too much trouble to deal with at the moment. That post will come later, I promise.

No, today I want to talk about... things. Things like me, and school, and other things. I think that "thing" is not too bad, as words go.

So there is this "me" thing. I'm trying to figure things out. I know there are some things, new habits that I'm automatically developing, that might even shock my mom, who my whole life has told me I need to eat more fruit. Yeah well, I don't like very many fruits... still, it's a good alternative to pigging out on fatty foods all the time. I think I have to buy more apples and oranges weekly, I eat a lot. Mainly just apples and oranges though, because while I like bananas I don't like green bananas, and the slightly brown bananas are okay but they go from yellow to horribly brown way too quickly. Either way, I am losing so much weight lately, and I'd like to attribute that to the fact that I eat less, and I eat healthier, but really I have no idea why I lose weight. It's not as though I exercise a whole lot. There's also the fact that in the past month or so, I only get heartburn when I eat foods that I didn't make with mostly fresh ingredients. For example, last week in Disney Jenn's mother kept feeding me candy, and it gave me heartburn every single time, but it was basically the first time I'd gotten heartburn at all in a couple weeks. That's pretty nice. I eat noodles for dinner a lot, with a rather odd assortment of random vegetables. Or an apple with peanut butter, because I don't like apples by themselves (and Jenn and Tess think that's disgusting, but they have never tried it, so they have no room to talk). There was more I wanted to say about the "me" thing but I can't remember anymore...

The school thing.  I really like the school thing in many ways, but there are things I also don't like. Which is to be expected, you can't ever like everything.  What don't I like? Well at the moment the class that angers me the most is Dutch class. Okay, so it lasts for one semester and it's pass/fail, all that we earn for it are LWE credits (Living and Working in Europe). It moves horribly slow and seems so utterly pointless to me. My teacher explains the same things over and over and over, but not very clearly. I mean, I learn languages very easily so.. I get it. But then she starts asking questions around the room and when people are confused, she starts yelling. Pardon my language, the other day she literally yelled at the class "What is the fucking question?" and then to one kid, she was trying to ask him something and he was really confused and she said "fuck it. I hate you!" It was pretty shocking. Hilariously terrifying. I dislike the class, I dislike the teacher, and I feel that I would be better off learning on my own, or from my Dutch peers.  The problem with that is that I am very self-conscious and I don't like to talk to people in their own language (especially when I don't have the very best grasp on it) because I don't like to be wrong. This all just frustrates me, because it's not a required class, and I really could learn it all on my own if I tried hard enough, but I want those LWE credits. We're required a certain amount per year, and I don't want to have to find something else to fill the credits. Most of the stuff we have gone over in class are the basic things that I kind of already knew, to some extent. We're four weeks in now, I feel like we should be further than that.  I don't know.

On the other hand, there's that "things that I like" part of school. While I don't particularly care for "Cultural Dimension of Europe" or research skills, I really like intercultural communications, and oral presentations. It is because of these classes that I believe I will choose to focus on the private sector next year rather than the public sector. Public sector is politics and such, which at first is what I thought I would prefer, but then I went to my very first oral presentations lecture. Oral presentations is the class in which we have to build a business presentation and present it as if we are actually a representative from some company, giving a business presentation to a room full of business people. Okay yes, I have problems talking in front of people. But I have this huge love for words... Written and spoken language. I think problems with talking in front of people can be overcome, if I try hard enough. I think private sector would give me more options in terms of future careers. Maybe I can work for an international company somewhere, anywhere in the world.  Also, if I focus on private sector there's a university in Norway where I could go for exchange, and I would love to go to Norway, for just one semester. Then in my third year I have to do an internship, and I was told that the private sector internships are usually well-paid, whereas the public sector internships typically don't pay well, if they pay at all. My internship can be anywhere I want it to be (I think. I'm not sure if it has to be within Europe), so I guess I have to think where I might want to go.

I'm going to start writing down my blog ideas in a notebook... I think of so many possible things to put in my blog, and then I never remember them when it comes time to write.  It's not a huge loss because I still write pretty long posts, but maybe if I didn't always forget, I could post more often...

1 comment:

  1. Ok, I have a few comments. DANG, I can't wait to hear about Paris Disneyland!! And, did the teacher say F in Dutch or English? If Dutch....then you understood and learned a new word....oh happy day. If English, then if she wants you guys to learn Dutch, she should have said it in Dutch. Actually, I can't believe that she said it at all, but then, I guess they can get away with that in college? Heck, I hear that they are doing it in High School even. Anyway, glad you are going to keep a journal of things you think about to blog as I always wonder WHAT it is you 'forgot' to tell us :-)
    Have a happy day!!

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